So I'm guessing most of you didn't even notice I've been gone (fuck you) - but for those of you who have been wondering where I've gotten to, well I had taken a rather extended maternity leave from online work... My son is 18 now. Just kidding, he's only 2.
I’ve been asked a lot of questions recently so I thought I’d do a video to explain myself - unfortunately, I had a glass of wine and rambled too much in the video, so here I am, typing.
Co-incidentally, I wanted to take this opportunity to say a HUGE thank you to those of you who've been so kind and patient with me whilst I’ve been attempting to juggle parenthood, work and an enormous change in my life circumstances. I’m very aware some of you have waited nearly three years for me to get my proverbial shit together, particularly some of my regular subs who have stuck around - even though I gave many of you out a list of amazing dommes to go to instead of me - you wonderfully obedient things, you *makes a love heart shape with fingers*. So from the bottom of my stone-cold heart, thank you. And to the photographers and other clients who’ve been patiently waiting to hear from me. I seriously really appreciate you all for making this transition back to work so easy for me.
SO… where have I been? A few of you have asked…
I have been doing the odd shoot here and there - mostly spanking work, of course. But also a few bits for other fetish sites, such as All Fetish Forums, and I’ve done the odd art nude shoot with familiar photographers. I attended my first shoot around two months after giving birth for AAA Spanking and Sarah Gregory, and I carried on doing the odd spanking shoot every few months. And it’s nice to feel a bit like an old tart whilst I’m getting my arse brutally spanked by a friend once in a while.
But this was about as much as I could manage, at the time, without hindering my functioning to parent my baby to the best of what my physical abilities would allow me to. Also, fuck me, but childcare costs are a bit pricey, aren’t they? And unfortunately, at the time, the thought of doing any kind of self-made content work or for me to attend sessions had too much of an emotional pressure for me to perform to the standards that I have set myself. I simply felt I couldn’t even get my head around it. I have a BIG issue with my speech and talking on camera, so it doesn't take a lot for me to shy away from it. I think I may of had a little bit of ‘Dom Drop’ too - which I’ll explain more about in another blog post… If I can be fucked to write it, that is.
However, over the last few months, I have been gradually picking up the sessions again - and I’m beginning to bring myself back online again. I'm pushing myself to talk on camera again. And, oh my goodness, it’s been amazing doing sessions again. I forgot how good for the soul it is to boot a man in the bollocks.
Am I Still Modeling?
I’ve had a fair few photographers ask me if I’m ever going to model again, because in all honesty, I wasn’t sure how much my body would change after having a baby - but in short, yes I am still modeling. I just can’t post the images on social media because I’m terrible at dressing myself and remembering to put on clothes. I actually attended two shoots last week, in fact. And I don’t really look any different pre-pregnancy, I just have longer hair and a very small c-section scar. I am older, bitterer and more twisted though.
However, I will no longer be arranging my epic modeling tours where I would live out of a suitcase for 2-4 weeks at a time. I do still travel to the right shoot - for instance since giving birth, I’ve worked in Scotland, The Midlands, Kent, London multiple times and a brief stint abroad. I have bases around the UK so I’m still darting all over the place, but only if I'm specifically booked there. So if you are wanting to work with me, don’t wait for a tour, just book me and I’ll do what I can to get to you.
I’m gradually phasing out the name of Helen Stephens and replacing it with Bunnie Stevens. Both names have been around for a long while. ‘Helen Stephens’ was originally to be my Art Nude/Portraiture brand and ‘Bunnie Stevens’ was more representative of my pervier side. But they kind have gotten a bit muddled since I’ve never kept either side of my work hidden from one another. And I have terrible admin skills. I’m moving more to ‘Bunnie’ simply because it’s the fetish/BDSM work that I’m focusing on more now as quite frankly, I'm getting too old to be posing in freezing cold lakes and dangling out of trees arsehole naked. My knee and hip joints are starting to despise me.
There’s probably more, but I can’t think right now. In a nutshell, I think I was starting to go through a midlife crisis, so I’ve decided to make things right by becoming a professional pervert once and for all.
So there we have it, an explanation of where I have been and where I am at.
Thanks for reading and thank you for sticking around!
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